hope

from tammy who knows him...i still can't believe the words came out of his mouth again...and not sure who the other friend is...

Monday, January 22, 2007
the glitter splash
i don't get it. i'm lost. i've been watching the spotlighted for a few years now, from a pretty nifty vantage point: right next to my brightly lit Honey. i thought i'd enjoy a fine time of People Watching from my view here, and perhaps come up with a wise little ditty or two about fame and spotlights and souls and life. and to be honest... i can't come up with much wisdom yet.

i have two friends who are in lalaland's hotseat right now.... and the photos splashed in front of my eyes, throughout the news pages, reminds me of neither.

he
he is the father
of my child's friend
he's been to my house
enough times to fill a hand
or two
his wife
a most shockingly beautiful woman she is
kind as kind can be
he
never called
me or honey
a dyke
or
a faggot....
he
came with his cowboy hat on
some boots
and a smile that could power Time's Square
on new years eve
i barely recognized him last week
faggot he said
faggot

the man i have known
is not that man

my other friend
eyes as old as the sea
she dove in again
head first
splash
splash
splash
caught some attention
she did,
and got some people wet
she did,
one man
wanted some of her splash
and so in he jumped;
he tried to sit on her shoulders
tried to tread water by using her as the buoy
the quotes they pull from her
to splash
splash
splash
across the headlines
sales
sales
sales
i guess
but they aren't painting
the truth
of who she really is
and i watch
from afar
as far as possible, really,
she is far braver than i
perhaps she has less fear than i
but either way
i do not recognize the fictional character
the media has been developing

when you look at an object
through a glass of water
depending on the angle of your view
the object can look broken in half
when it is not at all

fame is like that water
it gives the illusion
of the object on the other side
being something different than what it is....

he is not a bad man
he is flawed
aren't we all
what that must be like
to have one's flaws
amplified for all to see
and shame
i forgive his words,
because truth be told
i do not believe
the word
faggot
lives in his heart
he has a journey ahead of him

blessed be his lessons

and she
she
she


well....
truth be told....
i continue to learn from she

blessed be my lessons

fame
can hide the entire truth
it can break the person in half
for real or not

i do not recognize the
captioned
photos
of two who have taken their shoes off at my door
one the media has fractured the truth of
and the other
fame might have.

but i'm still here, perched from my nest way back, taking notes, trying to learn how to jiggle the dance of the glitter without breaking in half.
posted by Tammy